Wednesday, December 25, 2019
Lullaby
Not sure about you my baby but mumma do fall asleep while listening to the lullabies she play for you at night.
Wednesday, April 4, 2018
Shayari mode ON - Part 1
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उस ढाबे की वो दाल आज बेस्वाद लगी मुझे. तुम्हारी यादो की खटास थी उसमे ||

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दिन ढलता गया पर तुम नहीं आये | बेचैनी बढ़ती गयी पर तुम नहीं आये |

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मेज़ पर रखदो तुम्हारा ये गुस्सा, अहंकार और गुरूर | बस खाली हाथ चले आओ मेरे दिल में रहने ||

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चलो फिर से आज ये तकियाँ हम आधा आधा बाँट ले |
मुश्किल भरी ज़िन्दगी में थोड़ी बहुत खुशिया छांट ले |
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Wednesday, August 30, 2017
NOT a love story
Boy 1: *doubtingly* She is new to the office but there is something not normal
between you and her. Awkward eye contacts and no talks.
Boy 2: *calmly* There was a time when we were in love with each other.
Boy 1: *curiously* Then why aren't you guys together ?
Boy 2: We loved each other, at different time.
*unpleasant silence*
Wednesday, August 2, 2017
Lip-Liner 2
Was reading an old post Lip-liner 1 .. tried to write something beyond it.

बड़ी फुरसत है मेरे दिल को तुजसे दिल्लगी करने की ,
एक ख्वाइश अधूरी है खुदको तेरी बाहों में भरने की ||
मुद्दतों से दिल में छुपी तेरी तस्वीर ज़माना ना देख पायेगा,
तू चुपके से ही आ पर मेरी साँसे,फिर से, तेरे सीवा कोई और ना चला पायेगा ||

बड़ी फुरसत है मेरे दिल को तुजसे दिल्लगी करने की ,
एक ख्वाइश अधूरी है खुदको तेरी बाहों में भरने की ||
मुद्दतों से दिल में छुपी तेरी तस्वीर ज़माना ना देख पायेगा,
तू चुपके से ही आ पर मेरी साँसे,फिर से, तेरे सीवा कोई और ना चला पायेगा ||
Saturday, June 10, 2017
Neither you nor love needs to be perfect
Meeting after 12 years, they regretted for not marrying each other.
The small fights between them drifted them away a decade back
but now they have met. Yes, again. Millions of emotions flowing.
They want to be together now.
They got married.
Yes, happily married.
It was just a week after their marriage, a spark of argument emerged between them.
Argument turned into arguments.
Days turned into months.
Fights like a monster ate their love.
The controversies between them turned their life a disaster.
Struggle to survive in this world was greater than staying in relationship.
They got separated.
The promises "endless love ", "together forever" all faded away.
They hugged each other and happily parted.
No more regrets in their heart
because falling out of love is healthier sometimes.
Love was not a jail where they should stuck for a lifetime.
Missing someone you love is less painful
then staying in pain with a person you love.
Neither love nor they can be perfect
and it is alright to be imperfect.
Inner Peace is more important.
The small fights between them drifted them away a decade back
but now they have met. Yes, again. Millions of emotions flowing.
They want to be together now.
They got married.
Yes, happily married.
It was just a week after their marriage, a spark of argument emerged between them.
Argument turned into arguments.
Days turned into months.
Fights like a monster ate their love.
The controversies between them turned their life a disaster.
Struggle to survive in this world was greater than staying in relationship.
They got separated.
The promises "endless love ", "together forever" all faded away.
They hugged each other and happily parted.
No more regrets in their heart
because falling out of love is healthier sometimes.
Love was not a jail where they should stuck for a lifetime.
Missing someone you love is less painful
then staying in pain with a person you love.
Neither love nor they can be perfect
and it is alright to be imperfect.
Inner Peace is more important.
Saturday, January 21, 2017
You and my dry rose - Part 1
She was sitting ahead of me in the bus. Her long breath taking hair, smile while reading some random messages in her phone, gold earrings gleamed against her dusky cheeks. I couldn't take my eyes off her. The continuous bus horn was trying to divert my attention from her. Finally, it succeeded. Timings.. crushes..!! I glanced around and it was time to get off the bus. We reached office. I am a married man and this journey from home to office was a part of my weekdays routine. My wife was my life when we were newly married but slowly with time every day's fight and arguments have ruined our relationship to a level where it seem difficult to stay together under the same roof. Love seems to be very hard and poisonous to me, I have stopped believing in it. Some days i feel really down, i often cry but manage to hide it. We stay away from our parents in a metropolitan city where life runs faster than time. My office environment is normal, bossy manager-clever colleagues-untrained juniors-onsite pressure-high responsibilities. I have been paid good but my wife earns a little more than me which she never forgets to remind me. Piles of files on my battered desk clearly defines my Monday blues.
Oh. so it was my turn to bring vegetables today from the market. Great..!
I grinned. Inside, i feel i am the best and the most stupid husband at the same time where i don't know how to refuse to my wife for anything. 'The sky turned to a light, dusky purple littered with tiny silver stars' I was walking silently with head full of thoughts and handbag full of vegetables and then through my glasses I saw HER ? Did i saw HER ?
My heartbeat fastened, i stopped like million thoughts all at once strike my mind.I immediately removed my glasses cleaned them and in a second I gave another stare.
I saw HER.
Oh ye..yeah... it was SHE.
My world just stopped. The whole body froze except a stubborn tear.
I cannot believe my eyes. My mind impeded to take steps towards her but then....

Oh. so it was my turn to bring vegetables today from the market. Great..!
I grinned. Inside, i feel i am the best and the most stupid husband at the same time where i don't know how to refuse to my wife for anything. 'The sky turned to a light, dusky purple littered with tiny silver stars' I was walking silently with head full of thoughts and handbag full of vegetables and then through my glasses I saw HER ? Did i saw HER ?
My heartbeat fastened, i stopped like million thoughts all at once strike my mind.I immediately removed my glasses cleaned them and in a second I gave another stare.
I saw HER.
Oh ye..yeah... it was SHE.
My world just stopped. The whole body froze except a stubborn tear.
I cannot believe my eyes. My mind impeded to take steps towards her but then....

Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Birthday gift
It was my birthday 3 months back and i remember when a friend, infact many friends they called and asked a very similar question "What did your hubby gifted you on your birthday ? It was your first birthday after your marriage, sooo... A diamond ring ? Candle light dinner ?" I was like dumbstruck.
Well, they were more curious to know about my gift. Many thoughts running in my mind .Why he should do all this on a single day ? How come a gifted diamond ring proves that he loves me enough ?
Ours was an inter-caste love marriage. After a little family drama both the parties agreed and we tied knot around half an year back.
I was unable to justify my friend's questions. I cannot tell/explain her that love is beyond materialistic things. I cannot explain her how he makes me feel special everyday by those little things he do for me and only me to make me smile, to keep me happy. Ofcourse, some feelings are too personal. I failed to explain her that love is beyond a diamond ring or a candle light dinner. Of course we had made each other happy by such materialistic things many times before marriage. We were dating since 2 years and at that time we had only these petty things to prove that we had feelings for each other. We had many candle light dinners, movies, outing but not everything is worth sharing and not everyone deserves an honest reply.
There are memories which we still cherish, we had debates, discussions, arguments and even fights but love is the solution to all the problems. About my birthday, yeah, it was awesome.Though it was a weekday still i want to say that it was a memorable birthday. We spent quality time with each other after having a half day off from the office.walking हाथो में हाथ डाल कर on marine drive, attended Kala Ghoda festival, gateway of India and other places in south Mumbai. Later the cake celebration.

Later when i was in bed all these thoughts occupying my mind .A gift is something that makes you happy. That is why it is a GIFT and the best gift a person can give to you is his own TIME. His Personal TIME.

Well, they were more curious to know about my gift. Many thoughts running in my mind .Why he should do all this on a single day ? How come a gifted diamond ring proves that he loves me enough ?
Ours was an inter-caste love marriage. After a little family drama both the parties agreed and we tied knot around half an year back.
I was unable to justify my friend's questions. I cannot tell/explain her that love is beyond materialistic things. I cannot explain her how he makes me feel special everyday by those little things he do for me and only me to make me smile, to keep me happy. Ofcourse, some feelings are too personal. I failed to explain her that love is beyond a diamond ring or a candle light dinner. Of course we had made each other happy by such materialistic things many times before marriage. We were dating since 2 years and at that time we had only these petty things to prove that we had feelings for each other. We had many candle light dinners, movies, outing but not everything is worth sharing and not everyone deserves an honest reply.
There are memories which we still cherish, we had debates, discussions, arguments and even fights but love is the solution to all the problems. About my birthday, yeah, it was awesome.Though it was a weekday still i want to say that it was a memorable birthday. We spent quality time with each other after having a half day off from the office.walking हाथो में हाथ डाल कर on marine drive, attended Kala Ghoda festival, gateway of India and other places in south Mumbai. Later the cake celebration.

Later when i was in bed all these thoughts occupying my mind .A gift is something that makes you happy. That is why it is a GIFT and the best gift a person can give to you is his own TIME. His Personal TIME.

Saturday, May 2, 2015
Hug me tight
Hug me tight when i cook your favorite food even after our long fight.
Hug me tight when my cold heart resists to melt in those winters..
Hug me tight when dreams scare me and reality hurts.
Hug me tight when i don't feel beautiful about myself.
Hug me tight when i change myself for you.
Hug me tight when i can't take my eyes off you.
Hug me tight when i shout about our love around.
Hug me tight whenever i say 'My world gets completed by you"
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Too close or too far away from home
बार बार खुद से जान ने की कोशिश करती हू
"ना जाने आँखों में ऐसा कौनसा सपना लिए घर से निकले थे हम की मानो घर जाना ही अब एक सपना बन गया । "
Collecting my accessories,packing my bags that was the best day.
I was excited, the journey seemed to be so smooth and beautiful.
What else can you expect from an inexperienced soul who tasted water from the same pond, always.
I didn't drop even a single tear,
thought the time would have welcomed them but not me.
there was no fear, happiness inside.
and i left home, didn't turn back.
We got so busy in our work that we almost forgot what the heck was moving around
but mom, sitting miles away, worried whether we had our breakfast,lunch,dinner on time.
Am i growing thin or weak or impatient or whatever. She wanted to meet after all it was my first experience
away from home.
--With time you start missing your home. you wanna go back but the chains of responsibilities always pull you back,stops you from doing what you really wanna do at that moment of time and you try to convince yourself and mom:
मै घर आउंगी माँ पर ठहर कर जाते हुए मुझे रुकने को न कहना ।
मै दूर से आउंगी माँ, अकेले बैठे मेरे लिए राह तकते न रहना ।
सुना है लड्डू बनाए है मेरे लिए,
खूब पकवान सजाए है मेरे लिए ,
मन भर कर खाऊँगी, माँ ,पर ठहर कर जाते हुए मुझे रुकने को न कहना ।
Then after 7 months i came back with the strong determination of never returning.
gave a tight hug to my mum.
yes that was the real bestest moment.
I was the child in her arms.
Home means mom to me.
Spend the most beautiful days at home.
but this time,we can't stop it.
neither we can customize everything.
just accepted it.
कभी वापिस न जाउंगी ऐसा सोचकर घर आई थी , पर माँ की आँखों में गर्व देखा अपने लिए ।
उन्हें नाज़ है की उनकी बेटी आज अपने पैरो पर खड़ी है ।
आखिर फिर वक़्त ने समझाया की जीवन में आगे बढ़ते जाना है ।
घर' जाकर फिर वापिस काम पर ही आना है ।
Saturday, November 12, 2011
A message on 11-11-11
They say 11-11-11 will be good for you.Don't know about anyone else but yeah it did a little good to me.
Yesterday i was in chandigarh when i received a message regarding some professional work(jobs) from an old friend with whom i had not interacted since 20th apr 2011 due to some conflicts in our mind against each other and i never tried to elucidate them either for though i considered myself correct on my part and a little self respect was pulling me back everytime when i decided to take the initiative. I didn't reply to the message due to lack of sufficient balance in my phone and roaming charges etc ( ok its an excuse i know coz a message can't charge you more than 50p ) and i had 92p left. All because i wasn't willing to reply, i know it sounds a little egoistical but another truth is: its always difficult in an argument(cold fights) to judge who did less wrong to the other.
So whatever, when i went back home next morning i messaged my close friend ( S ) so as to check whether she was asking her ( S) too through the same message about the jobs etc and she (S) said NO. Then i realized that she texted me only though can be many others too but not in my link. I immediately replied her although she asked for an instant reply in the message at that time but anyhow i decided its better late than never.
I texted : " Sorry for the late reply, Thanks....blah blah "
In the meanwhile i was online checking my mails. I have subscribed a daily post from Deborah Ailman, Law of Attraction and Positive Thought Instructor and was going through the same that time. The post was stating something i never expected :
" Forgive...and let the dark clouds roll by so you can glimpse the sun. Forgive for yourself, so you can feel better. And once you've done that you'll find you can forgive because it really is the best thing for everyone:) "
After 5 minutes my phone beeped with a new message conversing : "no sorry no thanks, how r u ? "
I don't know what happened and suddenly a tear or two rolled down from my eyes making me blind for a while and then i was laughing hard asking myself what i did in past few months. Belonged to the same friend circle, cracking those silly jokes together, bunking classes and having fun, playing pranks, making small trips ,recalling all those golden old days and now we didn't talk from past 6 months. Wondering how had i made it possible.. It wasn't me. It can't be me. I was quick in forgiving and often forgetful too regarding any matter. Was i bearing grudges(the emotions of disliking someone) ? NO ! i never did against anyone.. but yeah i was bearing a weight in my mind, uneasiness and a little conversation today released me from the load i was carrying from long.
Last month of the last semester of a college life is always important. Recalling how we missed a good click together on the farewell occasion when we were in our best get up(wore saaris), the entertainment and filling each other's diary( your imprint on my life and vice versa) and many more moments.We missed them all.
Though even today, it was not a normal but a formal talk but still enough to remind me how we used to behave when we were kids where a single "katti" breaks friendship and a single "abbi" bring two friends back together.
Qualities of a formal and not normal talks are :
--> Lack of emoticons in the chats.
--> Conversing in pure english instead of hinglish(hindi + poor english in my language)
--> avoiding the use of slangs.
Later we had few message chat, relieved me a little.
Reminded me of a very simple lesson " Life is too short for harbor bitterness, cherish the people who have been with you and are always with you..Friends are always friends, no matter what, every friendship goes through good and bad phases, its all about bridging those gaps."
Yes, a message on 11-11-11 made things a bit simple/better now. Sometimes you wait for an initiative and sometimes you need to take one. Life is not complex until we decide to make it so.
"KEEP IT SIMPLE SILLI"
Yesterday i was in chandigarh when i received a message regarding some professional work(jobs) from an old friend with whom i had not interacted since 20th apr 2011 due to some conflicts in our mind against each other and i never tried to elucidate them either for though i considered myself correct on my part and a little self respect was pulling me back everytime when i decided to take the initiative. I didn't reply to the message due to lack of sufficient balance in my phone and roaming charges etc ( ok its an excuse i know coz a message can't charge you more than 50p ) and i had 92p left. All because i wasn't willing to reply, i know it sounds a little egoistical but another truth is: its always difficult in an argument(cold fights) to judge who did less wrong to the other.
So whatever, when i went back home next morning i messaged my close friend ( S ) so as to check whether she was asking her ( S) too through the same message about the jobs etc and she (S) said NO. Then i realized that she texted me only though can be many others too but not in my link. I immediately replied her although she asked for an instant reply in the message at that time but anyhow i decided its better late than never.
I texted : " Sorry for the late reply, Thanks....blah blah "
In the meanwhile i was online checking my mails. I have subscribed a daily post from Deborah Ailman, Law of Attraction and Positive Thought Instructor and was going through the same that time. The post was stating something i never expected :
" Forgive...and let the dark clouds roll by so you can glimpse the sun. Forgive for yourself, so you can feel better. And once you've done that you'll find you can forgive because it really is the best thing for everyone:) "
After 5 minutes my phone beeped with a new message conversing : "no sorry no thanks, how r u ? "
I don't know what happened and suddenly a tear or two rolled down from my eyes making me blind for a while and then i was laughing hard asking myself what i did in past few months. Belonged to the same friend circle, cracking those silly jokes together, bunking classes and having fun, playing pranks, making small trips ,recalling all those golden old days and now we didn't talk from past 6 months. Wondering how had i made it possible.. It wasn't me. It can't be me. I was quick in forgiving and often forgetful too regarding any matter. Was i bearing grudges(the emotions of disliking someone) ? NO ! i never did against anyone.. but yeah i was bearing a weight in my mind, uneasiness and a little conversation today released me from the load i was carrying from long.
Last month of the last semester of a college life is always important. Recalling how we missed a good click together on the farewell occasion when we were in our best get up(wore saaris), the entertainment and filling each other's diary( your imprint on my life and vice versa) and many more moments.We missed them all.
Though even today, it was not a normal but a formal talk but still enough to remind me how we used to behave when we were kids where a single "katti" breaks friendship and a single "abbi" bring two friends back together.
Qualities of a formal and not normal talks are :
--> Lack of emoticons in the chats.
--> Conversing in pure english instead of hinglish(hindi + poor english in my language)
--> avoiding the use of slangs.
Later we had few message chat, relieved me a little.
Reminded me of a very simple lesson " Life is too short for harbor bitterness, cherish the people who have been with you and are always with you..Friends are always friends, no matter what, every friendship goes through good and bad phases, its all about bridging those gaps."
Yes, a message on 11-11-11 made things a bit simple/better now. Sometimes you wait for an initiative and sometimes you need to take one. Life is not complex until we decide to make it so.
"KEEP IT SIMPLE SILLI"
Labels:
Care,
friendship,
memories
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Lip-Liner 1
Was reading an old post Lip Liner .. tried to write something beyond it.
In the moonlight, i take the air and think everyday,
what had led me not to stay ?
Fascinating was thy world, enticed me into temptation,
engrossing me thoroughly, accepted the inclination,
still i passed through the other way,
wondering what had led me not to stay ?
Labels:
entertainment :P
Monday, October 17, 2011
First glimpse
People generally outline opinion by what they see and later they may judge others by what they think.The first impression comes from your physical appearance(a distant look) that is why we are acutely sensitive about it, rest other noticeable points are secondary(you go close and interact)require for judgement.
Multi-million people exist in this world. Here words are reflected from the view of an unknown gal.
desire attention more or less,
astound by the glamor around
and the first glimpse at a lass.
The mindpower doesn't count,
the pure heart is veiled
when alluring looks isn't there .
Brunette skin,curls of light hair,
bulky form with bewildered expression,
still trying for a perfect first impression ?
Hiding her disappointment,
She moved as she failed...
Time to change,
she has to change,
skim off the fat,
from messy to mesmeric,
from eyesore to eyeful,
from grotesque to pretty.
Altered looks,
altered the fortune.
Now capable of captivating many hearts,
Recalling her own,which was before broken into parts.
Labels:
appearance,
crazy,
opinion,
she
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Grim(ace)
Confined happiness,
dump in darkness,
just a deranged was she.
Redirected those winds,
close known no more,
secret words no more,
twinge in heart no more,
deep fear no more,
giving sides and moving on.
Though opposite but moving on,
silently moving on.
But Life moves in a circle,
opposite ends have to meet,
to tune with those old feet,
turning a blind eye,
known strangers,
restricted distance,
uncomfortable silence between them,
what else left ?
Time to last,
waiting for last words,
do call it final last.
when moving apart for miles.
Why not with smiles,
when overcoming the past,
and calling it final last,
then why not with slight tenderness.
For the sake of old good time,
bid me final goodbye with a SMILE :)
Labels:
memories,
Pain,
Patience,
Peace,
relationship,
unforgettable
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
In festive mood
Happy Navratri
It is Durgashtami today [the 8th day of these navratri(nine nights) which is big in bengal] and is the day when we open our fast after 7 days but by chance this time the duadashi(2nd day) and triyodashi(3rd day) fell on same day so the fast were for 6 days only. [reason for this awareness : For the FIRST time i was fasting for consecutive 6 days]. I know its not a big deal, so usual for people but was a real excitement for me and above all i accomplished it. Yaawwwhhh ! [Of all the things i didn't have last week i missed golgappe the most :P aur golgappe ki kasam mene rasmalai ko bhi bahut miss kiya ;) ]
According to the scriptures, by worshipping the "Shakti" on these nine days the householder attain the three fold power : physical,mental and spiritual which helps him to progess in life without any difficulty.Apart from this the contentment you feel in your heart, belief of being accompanied by that almighty power is divine.
The celebrations start with navratri and ends with the 'tenth' day festival called "Dussehra". During childhood it was one of the most exciting day of the year. Durga puja(worshipping Goddess durga) in the morning and then eagerly waiting for the evening event. Visit the Ramlila maidan(place where we burn ravana... not we but Lord rama as a part of play :D).In burning the effigies people are asked to burn the evil within them and thus follow the path of goodness,bearing in mind the instance of Ravana,who despite all his might and majesty were destroyed for his evil ways.
A big fair held in the ground enough to bring smiles on faces around.
Celebrations include, fiests to honor the mother goddess(the triumph of warrior goddess durga over the buffalo demon,Mahishasura) and the triumph of Lord Rama over demon Ravana.
In short its all about triumph of good over evil.
Yesterday i came across this picture i pasted in my drawing notebook approximately 8-10 years back and really found it worth sharing.
Is the new generation capable of turning the table again ?
" victory of good over evil "
Anyways wish you all a very happy festive season :)
Enjoy.
PS-Lessons learnt taken from net.
Labels:
belief,
Bhakti ki shakti,
Experience,
Strength,
victory
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
A good friend
Sometimes when i need silent eyes to listen to my pain i miss you.
Sometimes when i need enthusiasm to play with me i miss you.
Sometimes when i need a company to kill my boredom i miss you.
Sometimes when i need a good friend to join me I MISS YOU...!!
3/4 part of the year has been passed since i lost my pet dog .He really did understand what we tell him, he used to think what we want and maximum times he used to comprehend what we were trying to communicate. Served us for more than 5 years and then suddenly ran away one day in a playful mood with a hope that i'll catch him from behind but i lost. Later we searched around far and wide in our vicinity but worthless.Even today if i glimpse at a black lebra running on roadside or collar around the neck with anyone i hastily speed towards them so as to inspect may be this one is mine. My friends suggest me to go and get a new one but will the new one be able to compensate the old one ?
The term is "Attachment"
Its tough to replace someone when sentiments are attached may be that is why we never ponder over it again to tame another pet.'Even if you are a bona fide cat lover,its nearly impossible not to be moved by the brand of qualities unique to dogs'. They can never leave you even i know my dog was too loyal but was taken by some greedy human-animal. Huh ! you pick them, train them since they were puppies and one day you lose them. It is so called life on earth. forget it !
But yeah ! i inferred a dog can really be a man's best friend :)
1) No matter how much annoyed you are by the day but there is someone whom you'll always find in jolly mood and is capable enough to uplift your mood and make it a cheerful,blissful day.
2) There is a special quality i wanna highlight here... If you love them they are completely adorable but if you tie them in chains the whole day they become aggressive ready to attack anytime. So make it a choice you want a family member plus a guard or a killer watchdog only :P :P
Labels:
dog,
Experience,
family,
hope,
relationship
Sunday, September 18, 2011
हम--> मै --> हम
यह एक काल्पनिक काव्य है , जिसमे एक नारी(can be more considered as married) के दृष्टिकोण को दर्षाया है |
मेरी नज़रे तो झुकी हुई थी ,
साँसे कैसे रुकी हुई थी |
बँधन की डोर कमज़ोर हो रही थी
धीमे धीमे मै तुमसे दूर हो रही थी,
रुक जाती,मुझे रोका नहीं ,
मुड़ जाती, तुमने टोका नहीं |
फिर भी ये इलज़ाम मुज पर आया ,
दुनिया ने मुझे ही कठोर ठहराया |
सबकी नज़रे मुजको ही सताती है ,
तुम्हे तो वो मासूम ठहराती है |
कुछ बोलू तो सब कहते- जुबान लड़ाती है |
मै खामोशी से बस चलती गई ,
तुम्हारी खामियों को ढकती गई |
मुजपे नाम आता गया ,
और मै चुप चाप सहती गई|
मैने तो अपना हर फ़र्ज़ निभाया ,
फिर क्यों न तुम्हे मेरा साथ भाया ?
आज पास नहीं, तो करते हो मुझे इतना याद ,
कल साथ थी, तो हर पल करते थे फ़रियाद |
अब मै दूर निकल चुकी हू ,
ज़िन्दगी में आगे बढ़ चुकी हू |
अब ना पुकारो मुझे , ना लौट के आउंगी ,
अभिमान नहीं पर स्वाभिमान तो दिखाउंगी |
अगर चाहत हो जिंदा तो तुम भी आगे बढ़ जाओ ,
ज़िन्दगी की राहो में मुझसे दुबारा मिल जाओ |
एक कोशिश तो करो , थोडा हौसला तो दिखाओ ,
उम्मीद जगा कर अब दुबारा ना बुझाओ |
हर बुरी याद को अतीत में दफ़न करेंगे ,
मिलकर एक नयी शुरुवात करेंगे|
साँसे कैसे रुकी हुई थी |
बँधन की डोर कमज़ोर हो रही थी
धीमे धीमे मै तुमसे दूर हो रही थी,
रुक जाती,मुझे रोका नहीं ,
मुड़ जाती, तुमने टोका नहीं |
फिर भी ये इलज़ाम मुज पर आया ,
दुनिया ने मुझे ही कठोर ठहराया |
सबकी नज़रे मुजको ही सताती है ,
तुम्हे तो वो मासूम ठहराती है |
कुछ बोलू तो सब कहते- जुबान लड़ाती है |
मै खामोशी से बस चलती गई ,
तुम्हारी खामियों को ढकती गई |
मुजपे नाम आता गया ,
और मै चुप चाप सहती गई|
मैने तो अपना हर फ़र्ज़ निभाया ,
फिर क्यों न तुम्हे मेरा साथ भाया ?
आज पास नहीं, तो करते हो मुझे इतना याद ,
कल साथ थी, तो हर पल करते थे फ़रियाद |
अब मै दूर निकल चुकी हू ,
ज़िन्दगी में आगे बढ़ चुकी हू |
अब ना पुकारो मुझे , ना लौट के आउंगी ,
अभिमान नहीं पर स्वाभिमान तो दिखाउंगी |
अगर चाहत हो जिंदा तो तुम भी आगे बढ़ जाओ ,
ज़िन्दगी की राहो में मुझसे दुबारा मिल जाओ |
एक कोशिश तो करो , थोडा हौसला तो दिखाओ ,
उम्मीद जगा कर अब दुबारा ना बुझाओ |
हर बुरी याद को अतीत में दफ़न करेंगे ,
मिलकर एक नयी शुरुवात करेंगे|
PS : यह एक काल्पनिक काव्य है , जिसमे एक नारी(can be more considered as married) के दृष्टिकोण को दर्षाया है | किसी भी व्यक्ति से इसका कोई सम्बन्ध होना महज़ इतेफ़ाक होगा...
Labels:
excuses,
Experience,
Patience,
relationship
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
I am with ME
Whenever i feel like losing fortitude, the inner teacher wakes up all of a sudden.
Ready to stop me from stumble in life.
I don't know how i start talking to myself or say there is an inner voice which continues with the tape "REICHA calm down" and then i realize :
Things happening around are enough to piss me off but truly its hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in this world. When i get drown in the sea of my thoughts and traverse those old memories, my heart fills up like balloon which is ready to burst anytime and then there is an instant shiver enough to remind me that i am in the crowd where behaving flawlessly is a necessity . I remember that i decided to no longer hold those illogical and unimportant part of my short life.
It happens, you may be the most valiant person existing on earth but there would always be a soft(weak) corner in your heart enough to break you at times. Then sudden sadness captures the heart you cannot flee from.
BUT... I refered the term VALIANT.....
Ready to stop me from stumble in life.
I don't know how i start talking to myself or say there is an inner voice which continues with the tape "REICHA calm down" and then i realize :
Things happening around are enough to piss me off but truly its hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in this world. When i get drown in the sea of my thoughts and traverse those old memories, my heart fills up like balloon which is ready to burst anytime and then there is an instant shiver enough to remind me that i am in the crowd where behaving flawlessly is a necessity . I remember that i decided to no longer hold those illogical and unimportant part of my short life.
It happens, you may be the most valiant person existing on earth but there would always be a soft(weak) corner in your heart enough to break you at times. Then sudden sadness captures the heart you cannot flee from.
BUT... I refered the term VALIANT.....
Yeah ! the sadness prevails but not for long. They understand that if one door of happiness is closed the other one will so sure be opened. they look for options. They are the winners who know how to free their heart from clinch of old shadows and i do value such people in my life.
while OTHERS.. :
miss this opportunity. they are so busy in opening the locked door of happiness that they aren't able to look at the door opened just for them. I feel stupid when unknowingly i do the same but the next moment my inner teacher saves me from doing this :P
Do whatever makes you happy because in the end it will be you who will bear the consequences with surely no regrets because it will be entirely your own decision.
Sometimes you need to be your own SUPERHERO ;)
PS :- I observed that whenever i feel upset i start blogging and start with the most " Devdas ", "cheerless " kind of tones but then later end up with a happies happies ending बिलकुल हमारी फिल्मो की तरह जहा अंत में सब कुछ ठीक हो जाता है (exactly like our movies where the end is always joyful).
Saturday, September 3, 2011
मन की आवाज
आज अंग्रेजी में लिखने का दिल नहीं किया | सोचा आज अपनी भाषा का प्रयोग करना ही उत्तम रहेगा | जब शब्द कम पड़ जाते है तो हिंदी में लिखती हू आसानी होती है अपने आप को और स्पष्ट करने में |


आज फिर ये आँखें नम है,
लगता है दिल में छुपा फिर कोई गम है ||
एक पुराना राग फिर ताज़ा हो गया ,
जैसे मेहँदी का रंग और गहरा हो गया ||
छुटने से भी छूटता नहीं,
भूले से भी भूलता नहीं ||
हर साँस को ये आभास है,
की आज दिल क्यों उदास है ||
दुःख के बादल गहरे होते है,
माना खुशियों पर हज़ार पेहरे होते है |
पर उम्मीद की लौ आज भी जलती है,
नए सपने आज भी बुनती है ||
मन को उढ़ जाने दो ,
इन पंखो को फिर हवा लग जाने दो ||
वो मुस्कान लौट आएगी ,
जीवन में फिर परिवर्तन लाएगी ||
फिसलती संभलती,
भागती उलझती,
फिर उठती
लगता है दिल में छुपा फिर कोई गम है ||
एक पुराना राग फिर ताज़ा हो गया ,
जैसे मेहँदी का रंग और गहरा हो गया ||
छुटने से भी छूटता नहीं,
भूले से भी भूलता नहीं ||
हर साँस को ये आभास है,
की आज दिल क्यों उदास है ||
दुःख के बादल गहरे होते है,
माना खुशियों पर हज़ार पेहरे होते है |
पर उम्मीद की लौ आज भी जलती है,
नए सपने आज भी बुनती है ||
मन को उढ़ जाने दो ,
इन पंखो को फिर हवा लग जाने दो ||
वो मुस्कान लौट आएगी ,
जीवन में फिर परिवर्तन लाएगी ||
फिसलती संभलती,
भागती उलझती,
फिर उठती
हस्ती गुनगुनाती,
यही ज़िन्दगी के रंग है |
माना की ये एक सामान्य किस्सा है ,
पर मेरे जीवन का अहेम हिस्सा है ||
माना की ये एक सामान्य किस्सा है ,
पर मेरे जीवन का अहेम हिस्सा है ||
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
DO IT YOURSELF FOR YOUR OWN SELF
तुम चलो तो हिंदुस्तान चले ||
नन्हे कदमो की ये कोशिश है ||
हमी से तो उमीदे है ||
हमी से तो हर मुश्किल आसान है ||
हम में एक हीरो है ||
("if you will move the India will move too,
Tried by those little feet of the nation,
we are the guarantor,
we are the handler of difficult situations,
there is a HERO(conqueror) inside us.")
Tried by those little feet of the nation,
we are the guarantor,
we are the handler of difficult situations,
there is a HERO(conqueror) inside us.")
I have heard, saw people complaining about long traffic jams.
Maximum times one of the reason follows :
* Mismanagement
* fall of trees on the roads
*roads under construction
*one way road
Maximum times one of the reason follows :
* Mismanagement
* fall of trees on the roads
*roads under construction
*one way road
and whats the reaction of the crowd at such times ? Abusing the government for lack of concern, getting annoyed by the situation,shouting at the nearby vehicle drivers for giving then the side as if you are at highest priority, choosing for the wrong side so as to overtake everyone and then blocking the traffic on other side too :P
Its your country so isn't it yours duty to set the things right ?
Mismanagement took place due to the absence of traffic police at the crossroads. Can anyone dare to give 10 minutes and direct the traffic ? "NO" because thats not our job. We can spend half an hour in groaning, criticizing and complaining about the situation but we cannot give 10 minutes in managing the traffic.
A huge tree fall in the middle of the road, hindered the traffic motion. Can we group of people lend our hand to move it at the side.? "NO" because thats not our job. We can sit in the car wait for it to be moved by anyone else except us or wait for someone to take the initiative. Why ? Our way is blocked by a huge stuff then why we wait for someone else to drag it away. DO IT YOURSELF FOR YOUR OWN SELF !
Believe me dare to take initiative as a leader and people are waiting to follow you. They just want a LEADER,thats it !!
Yes its my country and tomorrow if i will fall in such a situation i will surely step ahead to solve the problem, I am an INDIAN and i know my duties. I will try not to be afraid by the those eyes gazing at me when i initiate something because when i will succeed the courage will overpower everything.
PS : just tried to translate those lines of hindi into its english version. The meaning will approximately be the same :P
Labels:
crazy,
Experience,
hope,
Strength,
victory
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Belief or an excuse ?
There was a random thought from past few years in my mind.
There are times when we strive hard yet we fail. Not always we taste the sweetness of victory. At that time,when we feel a little low, just to console ourselves or to get over the incident we say :
""Everything happens for good.One should have that unshakable belief in the almighty power.Everything is normal and we gained experience""
Is it really a belief in GOD or an excuse we give to ourselves ?
BELIEF : A belief that there is goodness in disguise, we cannot see it now but one day we will surely realize it.Today we may be blind and complain it that we lost or failed but tomorrow will be ours and thus one should not repent on the failure.We strongly believe that GOD never make mistakes and whatever He has decided is for our own benefit.
Or
EXCUSE : are we keeping ourselves in darkness by giving excuses because may be we have realized that we don't deserve that dream we desired for ? An excuse by saying that destiny prevails and something better is thought for us and we move on.I wonder is it so easy to convince oneself ? sometimes infact many times "YES" it is easy because giving "excuses" has become our habit. Even from the childhood we give excuses to our teachers for late work or not doing homework, we give excuses to our parents when we don't wanna go to school or score low marks and now we give excuse to ourselves when we fail to accomplish our goals.
I know both the term depicts some optimism within them when i say "leave the past in the past and move on towards the future" all because we focus more on the negative side at this time but Is it really a belief or an excuse ? which help us to come out of this setback of failure.
There are times when we strive hard yet we fail. Not always we taste the sweetness of victory. At that time,when we feel a little low, just to console ourselves or to get over the incident we say :
""Everything happens for good.One should have that unshakable belief in the almighty power.Everything is normal and we gained experience""
Is it really a belief in GOD or an excuse we give to ourselves ?
BELIEF : A belief that there is goodness in disguise, we cannot see it now but one day we will surely realize it.Today we may be blind and complain it that we lost or failed but tomorrow will be ours and thus one should not repent on the failure.We strongly believe that GOD never make mistakes and whatever He has decided is for our own benefit.
Or
EXCUSE : are we keeping ourselves in darkness by giving excuses because may be we have realized that we don't deserve that dream we desired for ? An excuse by saying that destiny prevails and something better is thought for us and we move on.I wonder is it so easy to convince oneself ? sometimes infact many times "YES" it is easy because giving "excuses" has become our habit. Even from the childhood we give excuses to our teachers for late work or not doing homework, we give excuses to our parents when we don't wanna go to school or score low marks and now we give excuse to ourselves when we fail to accomplish our goals.
I know both the term depicts some optimism within them when i say "leave the past in the past and move on towards the future" all because we focus more on the negative side at this time but Is it really a belief or an excuse ? which help us to come out of this setback of failure.
Labels:
belief,
excuses,
Experience,
Prayer
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