Grim(ace)

Confined happiness,

dump in darkness,

just a deranged was she.

Redirected those winds,

close known no more,

secret words no more,

twinge in heart no more,

deep fear no more,

giving sides and moving on.

Though opposite but moving on,

silently moving on.

But Life moves in a circle,

opposite ends have to meet,

to tune with those old feet,

turning a blind eye,

known strangers,

restricted distance,

uncomfortable silence between them,

what else left ?

Time to last,

waiting for last words,

do call it final last.

when moving apart for miles.

Why not with smiles,

when overcoming the past,

and calling it final last,

then why not with slight tenderness.

For the sake of old good time,

bid me final goodbye with a SMILE :) 

हम--> मै --> हम

 यह एक काल्पनिक काव्य  है , जिसमे एक नारी(can be more considered as married) के  दृष्टिकोण को दर्षाया है |  

मेरी नज़रे तो झुकी हुई थी ,
साँसे कैसे रुकी हुई थी |
बँधन की डोर कमज़ोर  हो रही थी
धीमे धीमे मै तुमसे दूर हो रही  थी,
 रुक जाती,मुझे रोका नहीं ,
 मुड़ जाती, तुमने टोका नहीं |
 फिर भी ये इलज़ाम मुज पर आया ,
दुनिया ने मुझे ही कठोर ठहराया |
 सबकी नज़रे मुजको ही सताती है  ,
तुम्हे तो वो मासूम  ठहराती है |
कुछ बोलू तो सब कहते- जुबान लड़ाती है |
मै खामोशी से बस चलती गई ,
तुम्हारी खामियों को ढकती गई |
मुजपे नाम आता गया ,
और मै चुप चाप सहती गई|
मैने तो  अपना  हर फ़र्ज़ निभाया ,
फिर क्यों न तुम्हे  मेरा साथ भाया ?
आज पास नहीं, तो करते हो मुझे  इतना याद ,
कल साथ थी, तो  हर पल करते थे फ़रियाद |
अब मै दूर निकल चुकी हू ,
ज़िन्दगी में आगे बढ़ चुकी हू |
अब ना पुकारो मुझे , ना लौट के आउंगी ,
अभिमान नहीं पर स्वाभिमान तो  दिखाउंगी |
अगर चाहत हो जिंदा तो तुम भी आगे बढ़ जाओ ,
ज़िन्दगी की राहो में मुझसे  दुबारा  मिल जाओ |
एक कोशिश तो करो , थोडा हौसला तो दिखाओ ,
उम्मीद जगा कर अब दुबारा ना बुझाओ |
हर बुरी याद को अतीत में दफ़न करेंगे ,
मिलकर एक नयी शुरुवात करेंगे|

PS :  यह एक काल्पनिक काव्य  है , जिसमे एक नारी(can be more considered as married) के  दृष्टिकोण को दर्षाया है |  किसी भी व्यक्ति से इसका कोई सम्बन्ध होना महज़ इतेफ़ाक होगा... 

Truthful lie

Sometimes the most difficult task is to CONFESS the truth to yourself, when you have convinced the whole world with your lies and is confident enough that now you can convince yourself with the same lie...!

What's next ?

A month has been passed since i gave the last exam of my graduation degree and is sitting idle at home now.
 I am so called "FREE" for the next 6 months. This was another shock i got a few days back in my joining letter dated somewhere in january 2012. So whats up now....?
Life was always busy - running in the race with a fear that you may lack behind.
Studying hard in 10th to score among the toppers.
Changing school in 11th std and coping with new environment.
 Preparing for AIEEE and IITs kind of exams so as to get an admission in a reputed college.
Then when you cross the sea of fire(bridging gap between school and college) the next race you run is of getting a good, satisfactory job or again jump in the competitive world of getting admission in the best college for a post graduation degree.
And now after clearing 10th->12th->graduation.. (ok i won't say graduation because the result of final semester is still awaited) and before entering a corporate world i got a gap of 6 months and i was upset about it.
I cannot exactly  recall from how long i was demanding holidays from my life, from time, i always wanted a break and now when i heard the news about the latency of joining date i burst into anger.
"kya hai ye? humaara aadha saal waste kar diya? kya karenge itne velle hokar 6 mahine ?"
(whats this yaar, they wasted half an year? what will we do being so idle for the next 6 months?)
But then my mind showed me the slideshow of my past desires then i realized a very important fact of life.
" WHEN WE ARE BOUND, WE DREAM OF FREEDOM AND WHEN WE ARE FREE WE MISS BOUNDARIES "
Remembering the words of a golden bird :
"HAVING SPENT A LIFE TIME IN A CAGE, THE CAGE TURNED INTO MY BELOVED. NOW IF I AGAIN GREW UP WINGS, I WOULD PLUCK THEM TO PREVENT MY FLYING"
I feel like the same golden bird now when i get angry on being so idle at times. I always found myself hang up in making my career, running behind my dreams, fufilling expectation of others, making them cheerful, polishing my image, proving my worth and in this race may be i have lost myself but now i got a chance to live up to it wholly and since when i have understood the whole plan of my almighty GOD i just wanna thank Him for being so GRATEFUL....i'll try my level best and spend the next few months just for "ME" so that later i won't regret that i slipped this part from my hands....

just three words in the end i havn't said that from long :

"LOVE YOU ZINDAGI"

A letter for my heart

Dear heart,

I wonder whats going on  ?

you laugh repeatedly,

you complain about nothing now a days,

you forgive without arguing,

you don't cry when i forbid,

you don't cross your limits even,

i mean if you go like this one day you will surely rule the world.... !!

Are you grown up now ?

Can i be relaxed?

Eagerly waiting for your reply.

Your curious owner,

Reicha

The day

The day when I remain SILENT

the day i let things GO

the day i think its the EDGE

the day i feel nothing worse than this can HAPPEN

Its the day i become so FEARLESS

No one can tear me down because i am already in pieces L ......

Particles of me are destroyed BUT i am not defeated,

you can crush me but can't crash the real "ME",

Every pain is bearable,

Every instance is curable,

I can't close my eyes

and let my dream dies,

I am a believer,

I am a crusader,

I will wait till the end,

I know the end will favor me,

Afterall it’s a conduit of my happiness ,

The wave of hope sparkles,

bring patience within me.

I again stand taller gather the pieces around,

Proved my worth and again moved ON J